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2009-08-13T22:08:00.001+08:00

12th aug- simply, didnt attend sch. *twees! ard 2pm go for lunch at civic mc, den off to library. finish up all 6 drawings, den soon mit nurul. slack wif her, chit chat. soon head hm, wash up n stuff. otp wif baby, gosh i miss you!

today- late for sch, 2hr 30mins je(: reach cls, giv all my drawings. tcher gav me 2 more drawings, luckyly dis time. slack sikit, colour2 n add up some drawings je. fuhh, den 12nn end sch. eat n slack wif mates. den proceed to mit nurul, elfac n eka at civic. secret chit chat, hehe! den fir came dwn jap, plan for someting.

soon aft everibody go off, left me n nurul. we secret chit chat again, den go hm! as for now im at hm, all alone. yey tmr bby bookout(:

ps; nv had ani prob wif my blog so far, till today.

till den; RAISAHearts

will upload pics real soon.

2009-08-11T20:20:00.002+08:00

9th aug- as i mention, wen out wif kwn2 n baby(: was an AWSOME, HARDCORRE LAUGHING DAY OUT! my gosh, nvr seen sha dis gile b4. mayb due to him being sick ah, tu psl. oh oh, i forgot to mention. apik almost made me blind once, haha! ok so its like, bugis/walk to marina/slack/mengila/balek rumah.

10th aug- mit baby, b4 goin off to mit sis. mit naz n anwar as well. slack awhile, den his off to siap2 bookin. while i go mit sis at bns, make our way to NINE INCH NAILS CONCERT! fcking freaking awsome can? they all multi talented, wen it ends. slack wif few frens, soon aft take cab hm.

today- SO SHAGG! woke up late, didnt attend 8am-12nn clss. reach sch, its my lunch time. slack outside wif mates, den off to clss. non of us can pay attendtion in clss, nex clss p.e! took test n played taiti. den aft sch slack under blk awhile, soon i head hm 1st. so sleepy, cannot tahan!

ps; so tired to story like how i usuali do.

till den; RAISAHearts

mark dis date, its love.

2009-08-09T11:52:00.011+08:00

here's some past few days pic
9th aug- HAPPI BUFDAY SINGAPORE! i mus say i had fun wif kawan kawan, everi weekend. if go out, tk pena tk laugh! haha, so mit zick n wan. den proceed to town mit elfac, sha n apik. eat at far east, jln2 n stuff. soon proceed to marina mit reno, nurul n haiqal. abt time we all proceed hm.

today- out wif kawan kawan n baby(:

ps; tmr, HERE I COME NINE INCH NAILS! OMG OMG OMG!

till den; RAISAHearts

renovating.

2009-08-08T14:57:00.002+08:00

6th aug- wen to sch, well i dont hav to tell hw late iam. oways, trying to improve la okeng! so yea, cls photo taking. was FUN LA, cant wait to get the pics. aft sch stay for extra cls, den proceed library do my drwings. cant rmb wat happen, now da saturday sey! so yea, jus normal sch day.

7th aug- didnt go sch, got ndp celebration. not iinterested, instead. mit up cousin n proceed tamp. to get my deck fix, den we all sk8 ard. till its time, den go kembangan sk8 jap. ZICK TXT, HE GET TO BOOK OUT! totali excited, soon wen off to mum miting place. den slack at kedai kopi n stuff.

today- ard 12lebih mit zick, rindu tau. den slack jap, soon wen off hm. goin out ard 4pm nti. will update again soon abt today k, ntg much to say cos the day jus started. anw, been along time since i last sk8. 1month, my gosh. oh well, bising ah my hs. argh, i wana get out secpt mungkin!

till den; RAISAHearts

forever hungry.

2009-08-05T13:42:00.006+08:00

here's some past few days pic
4th aug- like usual start sch at 8am hari2, bt i kinda reach sch 3hr 30min late. so step in cls for 30min, aft tat go lunch. eat nasi lemak wif zee, haiqal, wan n vivian at theaterette. den i proceed out to slack wif padi, eka, dy n lin. soon aft got back to sch n go clss lor.

aft sch ramai2 walk our way frm sch to kembangan, den walk to eunos. damn kecoh, so hot. so we all get ourselve ice kacang! damn cooling, den slack jap. soon take train go hm, bt me n lin aft reach wlds. we go grab someting to munch, hehe. im like forever hungry can? oh well. eating disorder ):

today- late again, step in clss for 30min je. den da lunch, eat werstern. slack outside soon aft wif the girls! zee, eka, dy n lin. been along time since we kecoh2, gile2 n mentel2 ramai2. haha, aft sch goin of to simei wif zee. mit ace, syai, kai n rain go jamming. now in cls fyi, gona end soon.

ps; i miss my blood bro n sis. long time since we slack together ):

till den; RAISAHearts

ish main kn prasaan btl, haha.

2009-08-03T15:00:00.005+08:00

1st aug- wen to mit zick at bns, proceed to far east. mit apik n sha. den go eat, at cahaya is the unforgetable moment. the time wen tat 2 noty boy, REALLI KACAU ME SO BADLY ): haha, zick pon same ah! k den aft sha got wat he wanted, we wen off to marina sq n chill. the fireworks, pretty!

2nd aug- got redi for mumdad miting, bt b4 tat. mit zick, anta him to cck. he bookin ): hope tings down there be ok. no DB or aniting, like apik said. tk mungkin kene, watever it is. i'l always hope n pray for the best okeng. aft anta him, i wen off to mumdad miting place. soon aft, go hm.

today- seriously super duper late, didnt get to attend the 8am - 1pm clss! got in sch, den go out back slack. eat outside wif zee, haiqal, wan n vivian. KECOH! i was so hyper for, well nvm okeng. hehe, so yea got back in sch. go cls, as for now im in clss. aft sch at 5pm, will balek tros.

and now in cls damn kecoh! i n zee wen hyper abt SOMETING. hehe, we laugh n clap our hands so hard. den the whole clss also clap along wif us, haha! DAMN RANDOM, so funny! like they noe wats goin on, oh n like yall noe wats goin on? HAHA, *TWEES! omg so hyper ah, jom clap2 again everibody!

ps; if it happen, i'l stil be here waiting for ur return.

till den; RAISAHearts

the hunting conecticut.

2009-08-01T11:04:00.008+08:00

here's some past few days pic
31st jul- was jus 1hr 30mins, late for sch. its researching day, did wat we suppose to do. den got time, everione fb. haha, aft sch slack wif vivian, haiqal, padi n wan. soon the rest got some tings to settle, left me n padi. head to cthall, chit chat non-stop! eat mc n walk to doughby.

more of the chit chat, walk ard n chilling. soon zee n dy arrive, all three of them off to watch movie. den i wen off hm, change n stuff. mumdad sent me off to cwp, den i mit zick! we catch a movie, DAMN AWSOME LA! base on true story, abit scary ah. ok well almost half of the movie i kinda,

cover my eyes wif my hands la. leaving some gaps, jus so i can see abit. so wont mis aniting kire kn, didnt scream much. lol, jus terkejot2 =p kn? haha, i dono if i spell the title correctly or not. OH WELL, go die la okeng. so yea, soon aft we wen hm. do check out my youtube, new crazy vds is out!

today- goin out!

till den RAISAHearts

save duit rai okeng.

2009-07-30T18:53:00.006+08:00

29th jul- super duper late for sch, i reach during lunch time. frm 8-12 cls, i didnt attend cos overslept. so yea wen to lunch wif padi, dy, eka n lin. soon go cls, theory. aft sch go simei wif zee n haiqal. mit ace, rain, kai n syai. they jammed, den go downtown east eat. soon all go hm ah!

today- was late again, lol. 3hrs, better den yst =p so yea, step in cls for jus 1hr. den sch end, aft sch eat western! den of to bedok library, all 3 of us bwk lappy(: den soon zee gtg imediately, so me n haiqal pulang. i didnt reli pulang, i wen to wlds library. finish up my drawings,

now left 1 out of 8 drawings. see how much drawing i did today! my gosh, guess wat. now im at library, FYI. haha, so hungry. havin tots of, nk mkn ke tk. im alone, im hungry, bt i cant make up my mind. i tink i'l jus go hm, or watse money n eat mc! arh i dono, ok mc it is! no, go hm.

ps; OMG ZICK IS HERE! he is REALLI HERE! WHEEE!

till den; RAISAHearts

ntg like i dont wan.

2009-07-28T22:12:00.006+08:00

here's some past few days pic
27th jul- go sch, eat breakfast. den lunch stayed canteen je, of to stairs n camwhore. cls start, camwhore den yea. like tat ah, ntg much. didnt do ani work the whole day, ptg eat nasi campoh. aft sch rain came down, slack wif zee n haiqal. wen crazy, totali! will upload vd soon(:

today- late 2hr 30mins! took train didnt realize tat, i was sitting nex to andrew! haha, wen dwn my stop. den i was like, eh you! so yea walk to sch, chit chat den off to cls. get to finish my work, den of for lunch. slack under voideck wif zee, haiqal, wan n vivian. all eat nasi lemak!

den i n zee wen crazy. was so bored, so yea. haha, get back to cls. the whole clss wen crazy taking quiz at fb, den P.E TIME! bla3 aft sch go tamp safra wif zee n haiqal. mit ace, raimy n rain. slack there n played fusball! so addictive, so kecoh, so fun! haha, den yea bla3 now im hm!

ps; jus waiting to b asked again(:

till den; RAISAHearts

my voice abit ok okeng redi.

2009-07-26T12:25:00.003+08:00

23th jul- didnt go sch, stayed hm due to sick.

24th jul- didnt go sch, didnt stay hm tho. haha, wen to mit cousin for late lunch. den otw walk to rp, bump to sha n fai walking from rp. so yea, fai turn back to rp wif us, he wans to go ignite too. sha did tag, den slack at the canteen. bump to a couple of frens there, chit chat lalala(:

den elfac, hanis, wan, vitoria n some ppl arrive. thx hanis for the kitchen, u generous ah! anw its ELFAC'S BUFDAY! hope u had a blast on ur bufday(: and so, proceed to ignite! saw sab, enjoyed the whole gig wif her as well! after along time of not miting, few set didnt relli move me.

the crowd, seriously lame. stood there, lalala. abit at nite zick, reno, nurul n haiqal came down! yea den, its AVA ON THE MOVE! wen in the crowd, hell yea it was great! saw the ppl, who i use to see in everi ava set there. no fanatic ppl trying so hard n lalala. the pit was awsome la ok!

so ava was the last set, they leave me marks on my leg. my lips bleed inside n yea body sakit. haha, soon aft all go diff ways. zick, wan n me wen to eat at kedai kopi. PRATA TELOR(: haha, den off to linkway mit the rest. it was an awsome day la, okeng? den wen gots to go hm, go hm lor.

25th jul- bestest day indeed! mit zick at bns, wait for fir to pick us up along wif zafir. den off to marina sq, they ate carls junior. den off mit wan, apik, sha n more la can? k den, camwhored. kecohed ard, tat apik n sha suke eh! rebot2 zick, cannot like tat la. i girl can, u both boy!

noty ah yall ): oh well, soon we wen off to downtown. zafir got a surprise of his life, the ikan pari is sexy. anw wen off to laut, walk2 n camwhore like hell. was fun, den off to sembawang park. sing our hearts out, camwhored. den proceed back hm, thx fir for the awsome ride in ur awsome car(:

today- miting zick, like usual(: b4 he bookin, den stay hm.

ps; i totali had a blast, well again they take him away ):

till den; RAISAHearts

killer voice.

2009-07-22T23:28:00.005+08:00

21st jul- stayed hm, didnt attend sch. sick :(

today- otw sch, stp at kembangan. raining so badly, wen to slack. padi, mutz, eka, dy, lin n me. slacked till rain stp, make our way to sch/cls. finish work, go off to lunch outside. go sch/cls back, den finish sch. me n haiqal off to bedok mc, slack till 5plus. off to aljunied mit kai, ace, rain, syai, ika n zee.

jam there, soon aft slack at kedai beancurd. mkn durian n beancurd ah. bla3, proceed hm. it was fun, bt i type like no feeling cos. well cos, im in no mood. im sick, my voice is sick n tmr 8am again for sch. like i mention, everiday 8am. im hating the condition im in now, so pening aft coughing.

ps; its fine, its ok. jus trust me cn, hais.

till den; RAISAHearts

y issit so down.

2009-07-20T11:08:00.004+08:00

17th jul- didnt go sch, 4days alredi! at nite slack wif zick.

18th jul- dad pakse me go poly, so wen to poly. they make hole on my right hand middle finger! they inject la, den like tears roll dwn. bla3, den da. no more docs, NONG! so yea, aftnn mit zick at bns. den make our way to mit sha n apik! soon aft reno n haiqal. eat at far east, soon go ms.

slack den take train hm, bump to adie, afrio, mussy n all. lalala

19th jul- mit zick in the aftnn. wen to cwp, he bought someting. den wen to kfc eat n head to his blk. he siap2 for bookin ): send him off to bus int, at cck. tu part sedih, like hindustan story. haha, den i head off to my mum miting place. at kembangan till nite, den go hm.

today- i wanted to go sch, bt wake up late. in the other hand, i still coughing2 like hell. so yea mayb tmr i'l feel good, be goin to sch! ive miss alot of lesson, die3. oh well, now im feeling veri restless. i dono y? haiss, anw i randomly did fb acc. due to many pestering me to do it -.-

till den; RAISAHearts

frm inside

2009-07-16T18:11:00.007+08:00

15th jul- stayed hm n rot.

16th jul- stayed hm n rot.

today- stayed hm n not gona rot! im goin out, i cant take it. all of dis is due to me bein sick, till i cant attend sch. ive got to stay hm all day long, rot till i die? i didnt go doc tho, wen it comes to im relli sick. i scared ah wana go doc, wen im not sick. jus for the sake of MC, i dare.

haha, soon i be goin starbucks. chill wif fadli, its a coincidence. we both craving for starbucks, anw. i hav to fight dis sickness, cannot be weak. ive eaten my daily medicine, ever since im sick. been so weak for 4days, lying on my bed tros. today i wana step out, i wana open my gate!

unlock the PAGA, press my lift button, sit at bustop, hear bus ezlink sound, ride escalator at int, buy hacks for myself, spend my money, walk to civic n taste starbucks there(: oh hell yea, haha!

bt its weird tat, there is one ting. i cnt deny or fight the weakness, not even now or wen im out later. ntg like my sickness, more to within me i feel. feel like i need it everitime/everiwer wif me, so incomplete n plain. love? im deeply missing someone, in my heart everi second of my life.

ps; do you? oh well, oni god noes its true.

till den; RAISAHearts

unwell.

2009-07-14T11:19:00.000+08:00

13th jul- i seriously improve frm coming late n not attending sch! i reach at 8.30am, happi readi. still didnt go clss straight eat western, DEN go cls. till lunch wen out wif padi, dy, eka n lin. den wen diff ways, mit aishah, nad, al, nasri, rashid n a fren. lupe name kau, lol. bla3, catch tings up wif aishah. den head back to sch, their lunch over. so hang ard wif bella n all.

eat again, nasi briyani dis time! soon go cls, till 1hr b4 clss end. i wen to co-op buy hacks, bella call me saying. well someting happen, cnt story. so few hrs, head of to bus wif yas, rashid, al n nad. took train n reach wlds. i hungry again, make my way to mc! till terserempak alex, shawn n chut. haha, they join me eat since they no plan. so hang ard jap, den head hm.

ntg much, except for wat hav happen in sch. gosh i seriously got eating disorder, oways sleepy aft eating. bt still im so KUDUT NK MAMPOS! skinny ting like nvr eat, its ok. im still good, i dun care(: so anw, ntg much ah. its like oways, sch n frens n foods n more food n hacks n hm.

today- nvr attend sch :( im damn sick, batok2 n asthma. my gosh, its killing me. eat pizza first ting in the morning, im deadly hungry. im gona rot n die at hm again i guess. oh well, i so hav to write parents letter. for last thursday n friday. today 's one as well, im missing someone so badly!

ps; anw i wana wish, HAPPI BUFDAY TO AZHAN!

till den; RAISAHearts

help write parents letter.

2009-07-12T15:00:00.006+08:00

9th jul- as mention wen to hav lunch at mc, wif haziq. chatted abt tings out of the box! nvm, yall wont get it. watch vds abt wat we're talking abt, which yall wont understand. haha, till part 20 of part 50 at library. karazie didnt tag along, so soon aft ntg to do. we proceed hm.

10th jul- wen to civic mc for lunch, dis time alone. plan to do research for my project, instead while eating. terserempak dgn helmi n qayyum. they got no plan, so join me eat lunch. den they join me to library oso, i couldnt do no research! -.- instead each of us grab a hokkien book, random!

so mani words i learn, bt i forgot redi. so kecoh as for the guys didnt take library seriously, so bising! soon they left, actualli plan to slack wif saifuddin afts sch. BUT, i didnt attend sch again. tat saifuddin oso, haha. so didnt slack ah, at nite mit zick n slack wif the rest. bookout day!

11th jul- suppose to eat lunch wif rohimin, ptg wen to fad media for raw wif me! great bands siol, mahfuz perform n his band hell awsome! didnt get to catch fahmi's band. yst was hell fun, wen down wif zick n wan. soon mit the rest, blablabla till late. raining so badly,

sit at a resturant. wan blanja, SEDAP siol! its at lua kedai cyber, mkn 2 diff keropok n air bottle besar. sweet ah ko wan, blanje aku n zick mkn sane =p group hug! haha, we soon proceed to mrt, mit ju n tiara n victoria kn? den head hm, thx zick anta saya. buat susa jer, HAHA(:

today- zick at his granny place, mit him under my blk. proceed to north plaza, teman him back hm. den i go hm, now i hav to go out again. eating mc wif rohimin, last min sey! haha, kecoh! den miting zick, YEY! den miting lin, dy, sharin n izzat. slacking at civic n strum2. oh well, tmr sch mus go!

till den; RAISAHearts

eating disorder.

2009-07-09T09:51:00.004+08:00

7th jul- was late again, 2hr 30mins late. reach sch straight away eat western tho, den go cls. till lunch time wen out to slack wif haiqal, wan n vivian. soon aft go in sch the rest go cls, i hav to stay at main office -.- waited for my DM cos the stuff tahan me, abt the attire i wear to sch today.

polo t's n cut out jeans. oh well, so didnt get to attend my 2nd n 3rd class till sch end. stayed at DM office, kena spelling! aft tat mit padi, dy, eka, lin n haiqal proceed to mrt. go slack at cthall, eat mc n drink starbucks. blablabla, go hm. so tired can? sch everiday start at 8am!

8th jul- ive improve! was late 1hr 30mins je, good! haha, like usual. dis time put my bag in cls, den attack the canteen. eat den go cls do work, lunch go out slack wif padi, eka, dy, lin n zee. soon aft proceed cls, end redi me n zee proceed to bedok int. food court! sch canteen close redi. LOSER!

eat den we both proceed hm, zee took train. i bus, i sleep my way to wlds. den bump onto naz n kcik at cwp. i wen to the bank save money, den mit my cousin dan. hear our finalize recording, soon i proceed hm. bath den eat nasi ayam, den at nite i telan 2 conetto ice cream. mum order 4 box of it!

today- frm improving coming to sch late, today. I NVR ATTEND SCH -.- i sleep damn early, still wake up late for sch. so now im like at hm, rotting n almost dying. eat a pack of hacks dis mrng, as for if im at sch. i eat nasi briyani or western redi! im so hungry, mayb goin to mc for lunch.

I JUS REALIZE IVE BEEN EATING ALOT! senang hati, hidop happi. anw reply to apik post, i will cos i reali do love. to ur blog title, its wrong. dont spil tat words like tat, cos it hurts reading it. altho we jus got to noe each other, we're still frens. dont tink to much, be happi(:

till den; RAISAHearts

holidays over.

2009-07-06T22:22:00.009+08:00

the twin bro/fren/classmate
today- HURAY! i reli miss sch, i was 2hr late tho. reach sch, its my cls break time. so eat western, den soon aft go cls ah. didnt do much work, till lunch time. proceed outside to slack wif, zee, haiqal, wan n vivian. did another vd, check it out on my youtube aite. kecoh gile, haha. den go cls,

get result slip. mine damn rabak, so dont ask(: few hours i feel kinda hungry again, so wen down eat briyani. haha, got a pack of hacks. all gone case redi, aft sch is the best! walk to mrt, haiqal havent eat for whole day. so he wen down to wlds wif me, the rest go hm. eat mc n i tell u.

if its oni me n twin bro, kecoh nk mampos! alot of tings happen, i almost laugh n cry blood! wen ard cwp, he got himself some strings n i oso hav! thx ye, k so yea. the funny kecoh moment, is hard to descript. wat i can say is, i laugh till i fall on the ground, laugh till i cry n it was fun.

ME- beat me, hit me. u can nvr break me!

zee- ...

haiqal-...

together- all i wana say is, they dont reli care abt us!

till den; RAISAHearts

one hell reunion.

2009-07-05T02:21:00.011+08:00

3rd jul- stayed hm n rot.

4th jul- wen to town wif zick, wan, reno, nurul, haiqal n sya! walk ard, saw my so old fren nurul albania! haha, didnt get to chit chat tho. nex, andrew n MOON! like omg, i was damn hyper n shock. moon lost so much weight, take care my fren(: k den we wen off to scape, old fren on the move!

been along time, since i put my feet to tat place! saw satish, fauzin, mathan n ASHFER! den nex up, faie siol! haha, den travia bassist! i dono if i spell ur band rite n sori i forgot ur name. =p nex, azhar tat action boy n rasoool as well. den ruggad kid n nasri again, haha.

tibe2, hanis, iskandar n asri walk pass! my sec sch fren, tchers day jom! haha, den last but not least, ajay n asri. its like a reunion, watever the spelling is. happihappi joyjoy(: k well, den we all proceed to clarke n slack. eat hot pizza, soon aft catch train n head hm.

slack soon ppl, been a long time. its like ive been out of country, over few years. den bumb to old frens like tat, haha!

today- stay hm sunday, bt b miting zick b4 he bookin(:

ps; raisaur last episode!

till den; RAISAHearts

HAPPY BUFDAY MUMMY, ILY!

2009-07-03T11:42:00.002+08:00

1st jul- wen to tamp, while waiting for my cousin dan. someone pok my cheek frm the back, i turn skali its fauzi! k blablabla, dan arrive so go mc eat. den head off to recording, at his frens place. at the end of recording, i jus realise my fren fauzin plak! been in his hs all along, LOL!

den me n dan wen off to mc eat again. haha, den someone hug me frm the back! its linda, like its been a long time! den blablabla, me n dan head hm excitedly. cant wait for the finalize recording, wat ive got is jus a demo. den at nite, run down to public fone talk wif zick! haha,

2nd jul- wen to mit my cousin suriana! suppose to mit her 1st jul, sori i mistook the free date. haha, hazim tag along. anw, we talk n talk den proceed hm. didnt take ani pics for both days. my parents ni menjadi2 tau! since monday, i wake up. they not at hm, i go out n go back hm.

still not at hm, i sleeping baru dorg pulang. i bgn the nex day, they not at hm again! it goes on till now, didnt hav a chance to talk pon. menjadi2 tau! nasib my ppd 4cent je, if not i call n call n call! cey rai, im like the parents of them plak! anw kecohed wif my OLD FREN, rauf artch!

did i spell ur name rite? LOL, we're like talking on the msn calling ting. theres some audio clip i get to save, funni i swear! its been awhile eh my fren, anw we plan abt making more stupid vds. jus like the vds i posted at youtube, YEAYEA! its gona be fun, lets get it on!

today- i called zick, he unable to bookout! long story ah, so saturday he bookout. oh well, i cant sk8 as for my deck patah. got new deck, jus need to fix my truc to the deck. bt my bolts are rusty, cant be unscrew! mus go cut, dono wen wana settle it. wen settle den can sk8, oh well. b staying hm(:

ps; sori hakim n danish. wont join yall today, enjoy(:

till den; RAISAHearts

end of the month speech, jun09.

2009-06-30T20:25:00.002+08:00

im hating holidays, i wan sch cos there is always someting to do. anw, ive get over wif the past n now moving forward. i wana hit the target n get bulls eyes in everiting i do. ive learn alot, ive seen so many contohs. i'l make my life a history, tat is to be in future. for now i noe,

i hav yet to noe the world. hav yet to go tru alot, den wat ive gone tru b4. ive learn not to regret, on everi mistake ive made. thx to all the mistakes, i became even stronger. as mention, for wat happen in the past. i wont make it effect me, till it makes me tink everione is the same.

i was blinded, make a wrong choice to believe tat particular person. being ever so convincing, for how many times i was fooled. im still blinded, bt im glad my eyes been wide open. aft a long period of time, its still nvr to late. i still believe, not everione is the same. as for i tink,

god hav some plans for me. wif all the challanges he gave, he made me a stronger person everitime i fail. im moving forward, like ntg ever happen. looking at the brightside, being patience n go tru watever opstical. yes, there'l be alot of pain. bt hell, im the happiest girl alive.

till den; RAISAHearts

i wan sch can.

2009-06-30T20:00:00.014+08:00

here's some past few days pic
today- wen off to mc eat lunch, karazie came down. been 2years plus didnt meet him! so yea, soon aft sab n alif arrive. all on lappy n chit chat. soon karazie hav to go off, so the remaining slack. till its time to go off for sab, she stay pasir ris wat. so yea, den i proceed hm. ntg much(:

ps; miting my dear cousin tmr!

till den; RAISAHearts

everybody sing la la la la.

2009-06-29T20:32:00.006+08:00

today- as mention suppose to eat banquet wif min, didnt mit tho. no laksa! instead mit yas at bns, den eat mc n chill. did ntg much, jus talk n talk. den off to library, sit n catch some aircon. haha, den plan to go slack at aisha hs. bella n kecik cant come, so yea soon aft go hm.

my heartbeat-

couldnt hit a sound, cos it was broken n was left in pieces. the pain i tot wont heal, the pieces i tot cant be fix. is now healing, i can hear it making music. i can feel, all the pieces welding up together. i wan dis melody to play, till the day god takes me away. i cant bare to go on,

if the music stops once again.

ps; raisaur episode 4 is up!

till den; RAISAHearts

lifes a beach n sk8 pics up.

2009-06-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

26th jun- sk8 at cthall as mention wif hakim n danish. had total fun, seriously! ok anws, saw lotsa unexpected ppl. first up, lin! got free drink frm her, den ruggard kid! den a schmate, den sharin n dy! den hafiz apek, den taqim! den lastly wan n vivian. soon ard 8.30pm proceed hm.

i actualli wen to mit zick n frens! wen zick arrive, i jus arrive. slack ard, teman zick to his blk. his family balek kampong, den back to slack. normal place, linkway. i still dono why its linkway? blablabla, all gone off. me n zick stayed there. ard 2.30am walk back to my hs, den he balek.

27th jun- mit zick, haiqal n wan. proceed to doghby ghout mit lots more fren, den proceed to a flea market. the stairs maut i tell u, so hang ard there. soon aft proceed to eat at ljs, saw syidi aft along time. den yea, eat redi. we all slack at citybank place there, wait for more ppl.

soon aft me, zick, wan n haiqal left. walk to heren, im loving haiqal's new cap! hot red, jus like apit scooter! haha, k den wen to taka. got baby bob the dinosaur, k den slack jap. den wen off to forum coffee bean, den go cthall! mit some frens at marina steps, slack den off to mrt.

we rushed ourselve cos 1am got movie been booked for us. take the train, lucky still got time for movie. den got to noe, one sit is short. unlucky me ah, so i wen hm. dis week like totali not my week! haha, tho i still had fun in many ways. seriously(: will upload pics soon okeng!

today- got performance kn? not performing anw! long story, dont wish to tell. so yea zick book in, b4 he did. we meet at bns, eat kfc. my god, been awhile since i last eat there! anw, wen to walk ard. den walk to his area cos soon he hav to go. by 8pm hav to reach camp, soon aft i go hm.

ps; wan tokadi tk menjadi! tmr eat banquet wif min. LAKSA!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

3straight tired day.

2009-06-26T09:34:00.009+08:00

24 jun- wen to pasir ris mit hakim n danish to sk8. we push our souls all around the estate n off to tamp. TIRED SIA! den soon aft take bus to wlds, sk8 ard tat estate pulak. wen to ride pass linkway off to untie hs, den saw. hassan, wan, faisal, naz n fir they all there. so slack wif them,

soon aft wen off to untie place. ask for mum hp n go hm, cos TIRED SIA! den reach hm blablabla, talk on the fon wif zick!

25 jun- class pinic at ecp! mit zee den off to ecp mc, to mit the rest. chop place, den eat n hang ard. i walk adrian's dog, milky! oh so cute la can? den play games, captain ball n true or dare. kecoh sia, haha! den sewa bicycle all 2person bike n go all the way to changi beach. 1hr ride go n back,

lol, go n back? haha, i shout n shout n almost cry cos elzwan ride so fast! down the slop n turn n all! ggrr, haha. den rest n walk2. made new frens, they skim damn gd! bt not interested much in skiming. =p den yea, petang go mc to eat. soon some go off, oni left. me, padi, haiqal, dy, lin, sharin n izzat.

sit at the beach there, played wif the sand walk by the shore n star gazing. we all, strum2 guitars n sing our heart out. soon aft 10plus proceed hm, b4 tat we camwhore like hell! i was crazying in the train, will upload all pics n vd soon. same goes to the lifes a beach pics yea(: ok den,

today- be skating wif hakim n danish again at cthall dis time. hakim wana check out new deck, so yea. today dont wana go mum miting place. wana mit zick, he book out today! cant wait to giv him the lalala(: okeng now, i wana rest. my leg cramp can? pain u noe okeng! well, im hungry.

ps; izzat, thx(: raisaur episode 3 is out now!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

slumber party.

2009-06-23T13:47:00.009+08:00

22 jun- mit sab aft sch at bns, den proceed to mit qiss at tamp. we ate kfc n off to starbucks till 9plus. kecoh man! oni god noes hw mentel we are! haha, den in few mins make a plan to sleep over sab places. qiss cant tag, so oni me. we den proceed sab hs, qiss wen hm. gt in her room oni!

da gile, haha. bising sgt until her mum hav to step in few times, to remind abt our volume! haha, den we webcam talk shout laugh. again, ONI GOD NOES hw fun it is! den stop for a while, sab did her work. i get my nails painted, NICE CAN? haha, den continue webcaming wif ppl. kecoh ah seriously,

soon i txt zick, den he called awhile. we chit chat kinda long ah, den sab got tired n sleepy. i still talkin to zick, haha! den put the fon down, webcaming wif ppl jap. den she off to sleep, she got sch today. i stayed up till 6am, woke up n bath at 6.30am. lol, webcam wif my bestfren karazie!

den wif tat munir yg ilang for quite sometimes redi! haha.

today- so wen out sab hs at 7.15am, took bus to wlds. reach redi, wen off to kfc for breakfast! morning2 da bising in kfc, den soon aft. she wen to sch, i go hm. now at hm ah jus woke up, reach hm straight away i sleep! haha, suppose to mit karazie. bt i hav to stay hm, so boring lor.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

close to comfort.

2009-06-21T21:27:00.003+08:00

20th jun- OMG FUN CAN? firstly to my cousin dan, im sori didnt come for the performance, hope u did fine w/o me. to uncle rosli n my cousins, im sori too. didnt come for the bufday party, maaf sgt2 family tersygku. my parents did come rite? on the behalf of me, haha. hope yall did hav fun!

anw, again i say. OMG FUN CAN? haha, zick was frm his granny hs. near my blk kn, so mit him at my blk. miss him so much sey, 10days he in camp! lame tk mit n slack, reli2 miss him man! so den we walk our way to bns, mit the rest. wen sentosa wif zick, wan, hassan, apit, sha, dani n nad.

didnt take much pic, no one bring cam! nvm, i'll upload the little pics soon. so reach sentosa beach station, ride on apit scooter. apit, im in love wif ur scooter can? its hot red man, so sexy. haha, anw wen to palawan beach. the rest mandi laut, me, zick n wan didnt. so yea,

wen to walk2 by the shore. mit some frens, den walk back to our spot. soon aft, proceed to toilet. they all wash up, den go siloso beach for LIFES A BEACH! not surprise to see lots of frens there. sori yall, not i action don wana tegoh! tired la, yall oso nvr tegoh wat! haha.

ok so, wen we reach siloso! my god AVA ON THE MOVE, how much sweeter can it be! i stayed in the crowd wif my frens, till their play end. den wen back to sit wif zick they all, so tired! i sit by the sea shore, my god. its jus so relaxing, almost like throwing everiting in mind away to the sea.

was alone, den zick join me. star gazed, my fav ting ever. seriously, was ever so relaxing. sitting there, living everiting behind. listening to the water by the shore, i love it so much. ok behind the scene, lol. dj's hiting the beat, i join in during second last song till end.

joget nadia joget, haha! gerek la, my ite frens was there. so den, plain sunset on the move! bt was tired la, so i sit down at our spot. till 11pm like tat, proceed take bus. long q man! ok den, reach int. NO BUS NO TRAIN! so take nite rider to yishun, took cab aft tat.

stop at my blk wif zick. he sleeping at his granny hs, so yea. we wen hm, i straight away bath! den sleep, was awsome/super/kecoh/loud day! funny ppl, adorable n fun. haha, relli had fun indeed la! gosh, oni god noes it. time flies so fast, why dont we hit the start n pause it at our fav part.

today- mit zick at wlds cc, den mit wan. eat at nortplaza, PRATA! haha, den off to zick's place. he siap2, den me n wan layan his cute sister hanis. den slack jap b4 his dad sent him off, den naz came down. soon aft, his off to camp): left me, wan n naz. not long den i make my way hm.

ps; time fly fast indeed, anw raisaur episode 2 is out now!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

wedding n sk8 pics up.

2009-06-20T02:27:00.012+08:00

19th- as mention, wen skating wif hakim n danish. wani tag along, thx carry bags! LOL! anw, i totalli had fun today! back on track abit je, still very fustrating ah. haha, didnt get to mit zick! aft sk8 ard wlds, 7plus take train to mumss miting place. wif they all, their parents oso involve.

fun kn? haha. so yea, sk8 ard kembangan den till the miting ends. bored tau, rather do someting. den chill n eat. in car talk2 wif ZICK! my god so kecoh can? shout2 laugh talk loudly! 10days leh, miss him ah! haha, gosh im so tired. jus finish bathing, waiting for zick to call back.

today- GOIN LIFES A BEACH! my other frens ramai ajak2 go, coincidently. watever the spelling is, zick n frens are goin too! yey! so see the rest of yall there k! anw, cant wait la to mit zick! huray! ok my body in pain man, jus finish bathing. i dono wat to say, jus so happi sesgt now.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

tmr i'll kill syazwan.

2009-06-19T00:43:00.005+08:00

16th jun- slack at civic mc again wif my 2 good frens, sab n wan! kecoh la, like always. soon aft, go hm straight.

17th jun- rot at hm the whole day!

18th jun- no plans, rot at hm again.

today- zick booked out! bt im afraid we unable too mit, saturday it is(: today mum got miting, its everi friday. oh well, so no spagetti): nvm, the nex time u booked out. i got someting for u tau, harap suke. wan diam2 k, tk mau bilang. harap2 many ppl tompang my car, so tkya go miting.

actualli todays plan, sk8 wif hakim n danish! miting them at my hs den sk8 ard wlds, HURAY! to akid, plan a date to sk8 wif me again k(: aft sk8 den go mums miting, pls la. hopefully i dont hav to go! we'll see, i wana sleep nw. save energy for tmr, i cant believe tat 2days i stayed hm.

dis ting inside-

nvr felt aniting strong building up in me. it realli keeps me goin on each n everiday. almost so real like gifted from god, aft everiting. can dis realli stay? will it fade away? leaving me like, all the others without care one day? i'l jus pray, hope it would stay n if it goes away.

mayb tat is jus how, my life actualli is. to be left, over n over again. den i hav to continue being patience. to get tat true happiness, face the painest pain. over n over again, i wont complain. bt i hope dis time, dis one is diff. could it be? nah, who the hell am i. bt still, i'l hope n pray.

ps; raisaur episode 1 is out now! anw, mana munir ilang?

till den; RAISAHEARTS

sentosa pics up.

2009-06-16T00:34:00.011+08:00

15th jun- wen to mit wan at bns, soon sab came. chill wif my 2 gd frens at civic mcdonalds. damn kecoh can? seriously! i had fun indeed, no pics taken tho. cos someone paitau nk bwk camera, haha! anw, talk n shout n crap ard alot. soon i left the two of them n head off to mit,

zee, dy n mamat! wen down to esplanade n chill. den off to laupasat, gosh damn kecoh! oni btwn me n zee, hehe. ACTIVATE! anws, we eat satay, prawns n dy's ice kacang! sedap! altho i jus ate 4 stick of satay n 1 prawn je. all so big n nice, i cant eat no more. haha, loser sak rai!

ok den crap ard while otw to one fullerton merlion! i tell u oni god noes la, had so much fun! dono how to tell, anws. dy n mamat left taking taxi, while me n zee make our way to the mrt. talk n talk n laugh n laugh alot! till i reach my stop, so now im home. so tired! i waited for zick,

bt i guess his batt is dead :( sori to ppl ard me.

ps; abt me talking abt it again n again. paisey nye(:

till den; RAISAHEARTS

stupid phobia.

2009-06-15T02:00:00.006+08:00

14th jun- was FUN! wen to my cousins wedding n kecoh like hell! camwhore indeed! will upload pics soon, pics at sentosa too. k aft weddding wen to parents event, my parents company tingy. me camera women, anws. my ex KFC MAN was there, guess wat. my ank sdare told me she wanted to go toilet,

den she stop at the side, cos she heard my ex KFC MAN bad mouthing abt me. fck up kn? eh i can bad mouth him till he cant say a word la! bt im not a bitchy pig! his prangai is so bitchy! DID HE EVER TELL ANIONE OF WAT HE EVER DID TO ME, NO! he oni said tat, i oways salakn dia bla3!

MARI SINI AKU RAP SIKIT-

verse one

BILE AKU GADO DGN KO, SKALIPON AKU TKPENA BILANG PARENTS AKU PAPE! SO APE YG AKU SUKE SALAKN KO JE? LAIN LA KO! TK HABES2 MENGADU MCM POMPAN JAHANAM INI ITU PAT PARENTS KO, KDG2 PAT IBU/KAKAK AKU! NASIB KO AKU NYE ORG TK MCM KO! IT ONI TAKE ONE MORE TING, DEN URE GONE DOGGY!

verse two

IM GONA SPIL THE WHOLE REAL TING, AKU TERLALU SABA SGT! KO NK STEP BAIK DGN ORG SUME KAN, MARI SINI AKU ADE CITE BAIK UNTK SUME. JUS ONE MORE TING N AMEK KO! DA BAGOS AKU DIAM, SABA. KO MASI NK BUROK2 KN AKU INI ITU. APE YG TEROK AKU PENA BUAT KAT KO? KO BUAT AKU MCM2 AKU ADE CKP BYK?

chorus

TKDE KN? EH SLAME 1TAHUN LEBIH CUME AKU N ALLAH JE LA YG TAU. APE YG KO BUAT PAT AKU, CUME ALLAH JE YG TAU AKU NI TK MCM KO. MENGADUH SINI SANE DULU, SMPAI AKU JE KENE TEGOR. DEN KO JE YG BAIK, SKG KO BUAT MULOT PSL AKU! HAH, KECOH AH LU! INGAT, JUS ONE MORE TING N URE SO DEAD DOGGY!

-THE RAP IS OVER

well, peace(: im chilling myself out, anw i get to talk to zick! ns boy, haha! lucky his batt not dead yet. anw sometimes i jus tink i need someone, who understand n get me some words to keep me goin. sometimes, ok most of the time. i keep asking myself, wat hav i done wrong in dis world?

since oni god noes till now, i hav to face tings. being nice, sala. being jujur, sala. wat issit i hav to do, so i wont go tru alots of tings like lalala? i jus cant take it, bt i noe i hav to jus face it. well sometimes, ok most of the time again. i wish wen im sleeping, i'l jus sleep.

n nvr wake up, in peace i go following my dream in my sleep n nvr will open my eyes in dis world. who even care? no one appreciates me, for the tings ive done n for the person ive been towards all. im like ntg, ntg to anione n aniting. jus so sad kn? can i jus sleep n sleep till the end?

i cant face the world, goin ard wif dis fake smile. i cant face aniting, pretending to be ok. pretending to be strong, bt im jus the weak rai. i admit, im weak, so weak to go on facing aniting each n everiday. yall can see the joy eyes frm me, bt tats jus the coating of it. its bleeding inside,

i wana be strong. feel less pain, be loved, appreciated n happi. demi allah, me being like dis gots noting to do wif me still loving tat KFC MAN. cos he almost made me hate myself for being me. nw ive lost all hope in believing anione tat may be true in wat they're say. im jus so sori,

KFC MAN was also veri convincing. being to convincing n not noeing tat. he is the one tat will bring me, dis one of a kind phobia in life. yet i noe, i noe watever happen. i musnt make it effect my future, my passion n my career. well, i didnt rite? oni tots tat stays playing in my mind.

ps; i wan the pain tots to go.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

extra cream please.

2009-06-14T01:08:00.008+08:00

13th jun- chill wif kizee at cthall one fullerton starbucks! b4 tat we wer frm funan mcdonalds, saw oqi n frens frm the band PADDLEPOP! den yea proceed to starbucks n chill till 730pm. theres an event at flipside, pinholes n oh brother on the moves! mit alot of old frens too indeed!

1st up, wan the skinhead boy i use to slack wif my kwn wen he is still 12years old! now da besar, sec 3 je. lol! den saw marxy, babe go sch balek la k. slack wif me n gang in sch, no worrie im ard(: den saw fit! den soon aft, saw irfan! den biman, last bt not least. ijah n abbas! haha,

abt the show ting. KECOH! ESP oh brothers set, everibody dance! at my side of crowd gerek, meet 3 new frens. mimi, faz n a guy cnt rmb name. we'll slack again soon k! n dancing mates, a bunch of guys funny ppl! wen break time, all disappear. den wen i otw to cthall mrt, the guys all there!

haha, kekek ah. bt good ting they're frenly, was damn fun! oh well, anw i jus got hm. zick txt me to call, bt i cldnt call! my frens ppd low2, ARGH! den i got home late =( so i jus giv him a sad txt. hope tmr still can call or someting, Y IS NEX SATURDAY TAKING SO LONG! faster la!

ps; today my sdare get married! lets camwhore cousins!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

cant wait for nex sat.

2009-06-13T11:11:00.003+08:00

11th jun- mit sam my 5years fren ard 7.30pm, we star gazed at wlds tall hill. talked n laugh, well yea so windy(: ANW,

12th jun- supose to sk8 again wif akid, bt he unable to. so i follow my parents to their mitting place, luckyly my ex KFC MAN tkde. bt his parents got, they tompang my car. i try to keep myself away frm getting in ani conversation wif his parents. at the place, i was doin writing job.

den his mum came up to me n talk. bt jus talk, i don wan to get in a conversation of my ex KFC MAN. so den i finish writing n stuff for my mum, she move to her sit. i stayed at my sit, den the mitting begin! few mins i wen outside to slack wif my small cousins till the mitting end.

get to chit chat, shout, laugh, almost cry n everiting wif zick on the fone! we talk till his lights out, was fun la. even more fun if its nex saturday! well, be miting him earlyer on friday tho! once he reach wlds, mit him jus awhile. i'l cook u spagetti on friday k, saturday slack!

today- be miting kizee n off to studio Q! anw, thx kizee, for the songs u made. da jgn la buat lagu untk rai byk2, lame2 ur album nye name is my name. RAISAH, haha! anw, actuali ive got someting for zick! bt my ank sdare DID SOMETING TO IT! i hope the replacement of a spagetti is ok?

ps; someting happen aft the miting. NVM, lalala!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

home alone.

2009-06-11T13:40:00.011+08:00

i miss zick n not forgeting munir!
slack soon n camwhore aite

today- im alone at hm, now in my room. mitting sam later!

within me-

a feeling accured, wer by i cnt understand wat. its jus so sudden, bothering me so badly inside. couldnt get wat it could be, it is growing everi second. cant even tell, hapi or sad? wats got into me, wats dis i feel. again like i said b4, sometimes some question has no answer to it.

it happen wen i tink, abt someting. den my feet go ticklish, my heart go hyper. in a sudden i feel im missing someting, den came to tink. i cant wait for someting too, i jus dont get it myself! i can cry n laugh, at the same time now. im goin crazy, dis feeling i feel is disturbing me.

i wana scream my heart out!

ps; will upload more pics wen i get them.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

cafedelma punye lua lol.

2009-06-10T22:52:00.004+08:00

9th jun- i didnt go out, did session at my hs wif cousin instead.

today- wen to sentosa wif sab! gosh i had so much fun n oni god noes. we catch up wif each other so badly, soon crazying ard jus like we use to. im glad ntg change btwn us, she is the same sab n im the same rai. aft sunset wen off to vivo mit qiss! camwhore like hell the whole time indeed.

soon aft walk here n there. talk n talk n talk, i head hm. at clarke quay stop, zick txt me cos he can use fon to talk b4 lights out. my ppd still low! no fon to borrow! i rush hm, fast2 take red line frm purple line. den fast2 run to int n reach my stop i run to my hs. hell yea i run sia, haha.

den its 10.21pm readi, i rmb zick told me 1030pm lights out. den i try calling cos not yet time wat! den his hp off, so i txt him. say i guess im to late redi lalala, den he txt me back ask to call! he actualli off his fon cos batt low, den wen he on he saw my txt. so he secretly use his fon.

so we talk for jus awhile, worth rushing n runing back hm. haha, ok weird. nvm(: tmr be miting sam at wlds! anw, i reli had fun today. nex miting wif sab is on MONDAY, huray! i'll upload the pics soon aft i get it, jus now! someone spoil the mood wen im in the zone storying someting. sape eh tu? =p

till den; RAISAHEARTS

wen ns boys gots to go.

2009-06-09T00:26:00.015+08:00

wen the hair gots to go it gots to go
look at haiqal, enjoying the lost of zicks hair
8th jun- ard 8pm mit zick, wen to 888 n got mini cakes for zick n haiqal. the ns boys, tmr both of them goin in readi. anw, aft buy go mit the rest at the linkway. y link way eh? anw, they are all fun to be with. hope zick n haiqal love the cake! wen both booked out, wat shd i get them?

farewell-

to zick, again i'l doa yg baik2 for u. ur presence bring my level up to a happi stage indeed. thx for our frenship, rmb tat i'l always be here. if u need ani, dont keep it to urself cos theres rai always. cant wait till i see you wen u booked out! wish u all the best, take good care(:

to haiqal, same to u, wish u all the luck. semoga suke cake tu(:

today- session wif my cousin! been along time since i saw him. been a long time since we make music, lets rock on 28th jun! the cats pyjamas in the hs ppl, well. wed goin sentosa wif sab! cant wait, nw me n sab in msn tgh berangan abt lotsa tings. oni god noes, i wana sleep nw.

ps; thk u god for everiting, aft the painest pain.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

bored wif hair n teeth.

2009-06-08T00:57:00.012+08:00

7th jun- jus got hm now, mit zick ard 5.30pm teman him botak wif haikal as well. haha, all kind of expression came to zick face. his hair damn nice man! well, it gots to go, yet he still look good la. soon aft, wen to cwp kfc eat. den proceed to slack wif all of his frenly frens.

they're fun to be ard wif indeed, funny frenly ppl. kecoh gile, esp b4 me n zick proceed hm. someting abt hassan n cigg fight. i laugh like hell, the reaction ah kecoh. nvm, oni god noes. haha, gosh 1more day n zick will be in man! gona miss ya, i bet all of ur frens feel the same way too.

today- unable to mit cousin for session at compaspoint. tmr mit k! so i guess be slacking ard wlds wif zick n frens. tmr zick goin in readi man, lets camwhore smpai mati k! haha, jaga diri didlm nti. rai will oways doa yg baik for zick. i'l update pics soon, anw im bored wif my hair n teeth.

ps; cut hair n braces mayb? NAHH(:

till den; RAISAHEARTS

super duper fun can.

2009-06-07T02:12:00.009+08:00

6th jun- tings goin on in my hs, wen out ard 6pm mit zick n lots of his frens. wen to newton or issit novena jap, den proceed to cthall penin to get lalala. den wen to funan kfc eat! had super fun wif zick n his frenly frens indeed. camwhore alot! enjoy those pics up there. soon aft,

we all wen to marina n go lalala. i was ok, rite i am rite? haha. well catch the last train n i sleep all the way to wlds. soon i reach i see all da ilang, except for zick who is still there beside me. all the way to my bustop, i got hm n bath n drop dead on my bed. jus got hm nw.

today- temaning zick potong hair botak! anw, congrates to kizee! he got tru sg idol the next round! he sang, my baby you, check yes juliet n his original 'HEYO RAISAH' wif a guitar. i like the last song indeed(: its damn nice u noe! well, im so hungry! i wana cook like now can.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

the world is a vampire.

2009-06-06T11:27:00.008+08:00

words with no meaning to it,
question without an answer,
i dono wats bothering inside,
well its killing me now.

holding on to a word we tot wld stay, didnt last afterall. with every question poping out of our head, its unable to be answered. trying to stay on with everiting, tats bothering us inside. altho the fact, its killing us wif a stab of a knive. jus stay alive n breath in the morning breeze.

sometimes i cry alone in my room, wish to be taking by the almighty. theres jus no answer to it, i cant face aniting frm it. for dis hour, min, sec tat im here. i'll be patience to face, the broken glass on my feet. i'll bleed n jus let it bleed. oh come on, jus take me away.

away frm dis horrible nitemare, wer im alone with no shoulder to cry on to. i cant stand to fake myself, to the world everi morning im out. wif the smile, the joy eyes, the simply talk alot like im ok. im not ok, its jus unpredictable of the hard objects ive got to go tru.

will there be anione who will walk wif me, tru the broken glasses. say words tat will keep me goin on, not meaningless. atlast face the true happiness, aft all hard object came frm the past. living a life like a dream ntg like, nitemares. i'll be patience, like everi single day.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

terminator.

2009-06-05T06:26:00.008+08:00

4th jun- wen to mit yas at bns, den waited for zick n aishah to come. soon aft me n zick proceed watch movie, kecoh tau! carpark ting, buying drinks ting n movie ting. haha, i totali had super fun! only god noes, so den we both slack wif yas, aishah, bella n kecik at titanic.

the girls go lalala, haha. nvm, den we all proceed to my hs n ton. someting scary happen yet now da ok. zick wen home ard 5.30am cos 8am he hav to balek uma jb den come down sg again to perform at a gig. hav a good rest n hav super fun aft it. thx for everiting n sori for everiting.

today- goin skating wif my old fren akid! den be goin to mums miting at kembangan, gosh so tired man. i promise my mum to come tho, argh. nvm, ayeisha didnt get to join us. she hav to work 12hrs, i miss my sec life. i miss the noty fun times n hot gigs u wont get to feel now in the future.

till den; RAISAHearts

broke like nvr before.

2009-06-04T00:28:00.010+08:00

3rd jun- reach sch, my ex KFC MAN bwk girlfren dia to sch. sit at cntn, ok da, y do i even care, its bapok sia! diff one frm tat time me n aisha saw, dia kn masi nk berpoye2. well took the last exam for dis term was ok, den slack wif zee n haiqal at vivo. super fun can? best tau.

den soon mit bella, kecik, yas n aisha at usual place titanic. if not zick tag along, bt cos of him tk notice me there. he wen of to cc, yes im in white zick! haha, kecoh ah. ok well, todays plan to sentosa wif sab been cancled. we both broke so we not goin out. mit nex week k!

today- now i jus reach hm, my plan cancled. so be goin to movie wif zick at cwp, he blanja. paisey man, bt thx. my ppd low n im reli broke, argh fustrating tau! gosh im hungry, i wan bubur! so bubur it is. oh well, so now syafiq noe who kizee is n kizee noe who syafiq is. yey! frens, haha.

till den; RAISAHearts

butterfly clip for button.

2009-06-02T18:43:00.006+08:00

1st jun- almost late for exam! took 168, guess wat? my long lost fren khir took the same bus! so we chit chat till tamp, i stop wer he stops at. he ask me to take taxi to sch or i'll regret again abt the exam ting. so i reach and hell yea sempat sit for exam! copied as per normal.

den aft sch meet munir! my mc is wif him, wen down to mit him along wif my frens. padi, zee, haiqal, wan n vivian so straight wen to eat at LJS. kecoh la i tell u, its good munir is frenly, wif my frens he click reli fast. aft tat me n munir wen to sk8 park, the rest go hm.

munir sk8 for a while, gosh its hot there. den proceed to bustop n i wen to tamp. cos miting syafiq the gigling boy. sori lamat ye, sori sgt2! we took train to our own stops, me at wlds la. syafiq at yishun, he funny ah. laugh not sincere oways, bt actualli he mean it. weird!

den slack wif yas, aisha, andy, bella, kecik n zick! well, we all lalala. tat day tat time tat nite, funny indeed. oh well, i wont wana story. sori again zick if skali skale mcm u feel, leceh/penat n so on. maaf ye, ok so i wen hm n bath. den straight to sleep. nex day exam.

today- lucky i can wake up for exam! i reach sch on time like nvr b4, took exam alone. cos today exam is for those who didnt come exam on past time, till ayam came in. he oso take exam cos last year nvr take 1 paper i guess. didnt talk much tho, 2 paper sia i hav to take!

aft exam, so sian alone. like i alone schooling, in sch no hav ppl. mit elf at mrt bedok n proceed to admiralty. waited for aisha, syidi n andy. slack till 5.30pm den i proceed hm. was hungry! im broke! didnt eat aniting since morning! so i reach hm at 6pm, someting happen.

now wat i noe is, i wana get out n breath! i need to breath! ok or mayb i'l jus stay hm in my room. im so hungry, i wana cook. mayb later, hmmm. 1st meal for the late day today will be, wanton noodle! yes, tats wat im gona cook. anw congrates to zick! he passed his prac! way the go!

ps; i tink i shd sew my sch button, it wen off. or mayb not(:

till den; RAISAHearts

end of the month speech, may09.

2009-05-31T14:12:00.009+08:00

family- mummy n ayah get back our hs at wlds alreadi! i feel like normal kid now, goin to sch pagi2. salu salam its parents hands, den go hm frm sch salu parents ade. waiting to hear the story of the day, gosh. im so glad now they're here always, if not 1week once baru jumpa tau.

ive got a hs at jb cos they buat business there. so while my hs in wlds rent to someone, i hav to live wif my uncle. they're veri bz at jb, i nvr complain. jus go wif the flow, watever they're doin. is for me n my siblings jugak, the business wen well. they bwk the business in sg.

n it wen even better, my mum became a millionair at malaysia early dis year. soon end of year, my dad will become one too. im so proud of my parents, for their success n for the pendidikan they gave me. yes, ive got lotsa freedom cos they trust me. watever wrong deed i do,

i settle them on my own. dont wana trouble them je, ive been veri noty during sec sch indeed. one month i cant recall, how many weeks i was suspended. my parents didnt noe aniting abt tat cos i come out wif gd result tho. study tetap study, enjoy tetap enjoy. bt hidup mesti, bertujuan.

love- ive simply hav a phobia aft my current ex. still young tho, wen the rite one come. it'll happen at the rite time(:

frens- i'll treasure all of my frens. i'll give time to spend the mins wif each n everi group of my them. i wont let aniting take charge of me to go m.i.a frm yall, not animore sori. lets grow/enjoy/succeed together in watever we do. i'll be here if yall need a shoulder to cry on to.

me- for watever ive gone tru in life, frm a kid till the day i die. i'll make full use of life to be successful n make my parents proud. i'll enjoy, hav great time n treasure everi moment of experience in life. i'll nvr let wat happen in my pass love life effect me. im not weak animore,

im the strongest girl to hav gone tru such carousel ride wif tat jerk. yet moving on wif life to be a better person, not weak n stupid to still be loving you. one day you'll learn, how to appreciate. saya cinta kepada mummy n ayah, terutama kali allah dan sayang kepada semua nya.

today- i mention, its stay hm sunday rite. well, jus now meet zick tho. at my rc, he wen to his granny hs. near my blk so we slack jap lor. tkde la boring, stay hm je. well, zick! rai cant promise to go escape wif all ur kwn. takot tk free, cume sunday je. i try my best k, see you soon!

till den; RAISAHearts

boom boom boom.

2009-05-31T00:31:00.011+08:00

heres some past few days pic.
29th may- OMG WAS HELL FUN CAN?! was my first time goin to sort of places like tat. loser nye rai, ok cos im more to a gigoer wat. well, was super fun ah! dance ard alot, battling n stuff. funny, haha. i would love to go tat sort of place again sometime, made new frens also.

aft event, slack wif syidi, aisha, andy, elf n izzat. at the riverside point area, played true or dare. RABAK2 AH SEY! bt was hell fun, haha kecoh. den andy, syidi n elf left. lin, sharin, farhan n faiz came n slack. played true or dare jugak, till 5am. was so late so tidong aisha hs.

didnt bring my phone, charge at hm. parents oni noe i wen to home club, bt tk tau i nvr go hm. so parents call2 my kwn2, almost called the police. sori kedapa, syafiq, bella n yas. kecoh gile ah, haha. lin pay the cab fare, i sleep at aisha hs cos lin hs n hers dekat. mine far.

30th may- i called my mum once i wake up, bla3. den aisha wen to my hs, i wana siap2 kua. wen to cthall slack, watch comic strip. den mit yas, kecik, bella. den mit syidi, andy, elf. soon they left, sab join us. long time no see her u noe! i relli miss old times sab, now if ani.

theres me ard nw(: im still the rai yg lame/crazy girl, last time sab was my gig/crazy/camwhore partner. i use to hav fun alot wif her, alot i tell u. its all coming back, thurs sentosa day out wif sab! whee! anws played pool at marina, soon 11.30pm i go hm. my mum da bising.

i took the taxi, reach hm my mum spelling me. im in the wrong, so i jus anggok2. sori sesgt mummy n ayah. i noe yall worry sgt, wnt happen again. sori ye(: lucky they nvr set ani curfew aft wat happen. im still gd to go, mcm ntg happen. whee huu! anws im so tired can? arghh!

today- well stay home sunday man.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

lets party tonite.

2009-05-29T00:31:00.007+08:00

28th may- to my fren munir,
terima kasi atas segala nya tadi, semoga semboh ulcer.

ingat pesanan! kalo kamu baik kn best, bole kita bebicara. yst wen to poly pagi2 wif munir, i step sick cos 26th i didnt take exam! aft tat go eat n slack at munirs place. strum guitar, watch tv, COOK BUBUR, pic taking. kesian dia tk ble bbl byk, haha. cyou soon! i wan my mc haha.

to whom it may concern-

with respect, rai ingin ckp. selama rai dgn KFC, tiada sapa tau ape yg sebenar nye belaku. rai aje yg selalu di tego, jgn gini jgn gitu. tapi perna antara kamu tau ape belaku kepada rai? skali pon kite bergado, tk perna rai mengadu. sungguh dgn nama allah, kamu bisa nmpk itu bkn?

kepada parents/family/kwn rai pon rai tk mengadu apa2. pergi sch mcm tkde pape, senyum/gembira aje selalu. tapi sering2 KFC mengadu kepada kamu, perna juga kepada ibu/kakak rai. seperti rai aje yg jahat ini semua, tapi rai ye kn aje. tak ingin bercerita, itu silap rai.

ape yg berlaku kepada diri rai, bkn bende kecil. tk mengapa, rai tk ingin mencerita nye disini. walau bagaimana pon, kite suda putos. jadi ape lagi yg ingin di kate? mata terpandang rai bersama kwn2 lelaki, perna ingin ambil tahu itu kwn2 yg rai dan KFC gi sch salu dulu?

skg baru 2week putos, baru2 kite pisa. perna ingin ambil tau bawasenye KFC suda ade teman baru? ade muke ingin memberitahu kwn2 ini itu tentang teman baru nye lagi. ade tk muke untk memberitahu itu semua kepada kamu? tidak kerna, rai aje yg dia ingin nmpk kn jahat.

perna tk kamu ingin ambil tau itu semua? walaupun KFC ade teman baru, tetap dia kesana sini mintak no. pompan2. rai tk mcm gitu, selepas putos. rai tekat pada diri ingin buat parents rai bahagia satu hari nti. jaga la dia, jgn selalu kate2 tentang rai gini gitu aje.

sampai bile dia ingin ber poye2 dgn pompan aje. piki kn untk dia, rai da tkde kene mengene. tiada ape lagi yg harus kite bercerita, tk usa ke ank sedare rai. dan kate ini itu semua, rai hidup skg bertujuan. skali lagi, jaga ape yg patot kamu jaga. bkn berbicara psl rai ini itu semua.

ps; thx azhan for ur encouraging words(:

till den; RAISAHEARTS

note to self.

2009-05-28T00:15:00.008+08:00

heres some past few days pics
26th may- slack wif bella, kecik n yas at titanic aft sch. was fun, talked alot. lotsa emotional moment. in sch, ive got to noe. MY EX KFC MAN has a new girlfren now. so fast kn? he havent been serious wif me all along. how stupid can i be so blinded by him. aft wat he hav ever did.

i shd hav not waste my time staying up for him. my schmate told me, he hav been goin ard bragging abt his new girlfren. like, lawa tk girl baru aku? hot kn, mcm angelinajolin blablabla. yes mayb his girl is way pretty, sexy n all. bt still like pelacur la, his frens told me.

27th may- mit zick b4 he go prac at bbdc, eat at cwp kfc. den mit bella, kecik, yas n aisha at titanic slack. ntg much actualli, kecoing gile. so yea n i cant wait for nex fridae! miting kid to sk8 n miting ayeisha! my old sec frens, tk saba nye. in anws, i jus got home. ok so,

i think tat time while im wif aisha, we saw him wif two mina. one of them is his girl la tu. indeed like slut pelacur, totali. well, ok i did cry wen i noe the shocking news. bt i swear its not bcos i love him still. its bcos of wat ive ever gone tru for him, is like ntg to dia.

unpredictable, tk appreciate me at all. instead, mcm dia tk pena buat pape tat hurts me n jus go wif a slutty girl. in jus 1week, siol ah! bodoh sak rai, asl tk nmpk yg dia tu tk serious dgn ko. manis dgn kata2 je, bodoh pe! pi carik2 kn dia dulu nape, da kene mcm2 tingal kn je ah!

dia pompan ke lelaki, nape ko jugak yg kene pujok carik dia ni sume! skg da putos, da bgs! its abt time, ko da stop carik2 dia. kalo tk, sampai bila! skg, dia skejap dade pompan baru. ko nangis lagi watpe, dia tkde prasaan! tk erti nk hargai org, da terang sgt skg!

ps; lain kali jgn jadi bodoh. BODOH!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

penat can.

2009-05-25T01:04:00.011+08:00

24th may- wen to mit cousin n again we've made another new song. damn fun n tired sey, slack at the same spot. somewer ard cthall one fullerton n den nite readi camwhore. my bro's girlfren mit up wif us, wen to eat n stuff. im so tired can? i jus got home, i'll uploud pics soon.

today- exam was ok la kn, in anws. aft exam slack jap at blk infront sch wif zee, zaki, haiqal, mimi, wan n vivian. den wen off to yishun mit kizee n slack. den atong suro jumpe, dia organiser event2 my band n lots more. 28june got salad mix gig! i'll b performing n also hosting!

in anws, life hav been treating me well. aft everiting, i wen to wlds mit aisha. we eat kfc b4 head hm, GUESS WAT. while chit chating, we saw my ex KFC MAN happly wif two girls. sexy2, mampat2, tua2, way diff den i am la. i sch girl wat, ntg like them. so i guess tats hw it is nw.

ps; cant wait for friday dinner n dance at home club!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

cheer up by kizee.

2009-05-24T01:30:00.005+08:00

23th may- was hell fun! wen to mit , dan, my cousin ive been goin out wif making songs. well, mit him at somerset sk8 park. den proceed to mit kizee n 2 of his frens. i cant rmb the name sori, well. mit them at dougby ghout, watever the spelling is. den we all proceed belzone.

its like a party event, so the cats pyjamas. didnt wana perform, tk suit dgn ape yg kite main. yet the party was super fun! the person yg rap n nyanyi2 said all stand up n move. den i go the dance floor wer they singing at n did c-walk. den wen i see yg lain. dorg stakat clap2 hands -.-

yet it was fun la, made new frens. den yea, aft event. kizee made a song n played it. a song for me, i thk u alot. i jus dono hw to realli thk u like thk u la. haha, title cheer up. yes i was cheered up. we all den wen to slack at outram mrt sane. cukop time balek, the end.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

the cats pyjamas at belzone.

2009-05-23T00:56:00.007+08:00

22th may- didnt go sch, well jus got home now. wen to mit my cousin n we made another song of our own. todae performance! lalala, i cant wait like tat la can? well, had super fun jus now. didnt take ani pics, prac n prac n prac all the time. so i wana slip nw, penat nk mati.

ps; check out the new vid in my youtube!

till den; RAISAHEARTS

shagg n tired can.

2009-05-22T01:12:00.012+08:00

heres some past few days pic
21st may- aft sch mit up munir! my old fren, long time no see fren. wen to bedok sk8 park, watch him n many of his frens sk8. oh so pro la ok n it was an awsome dae. den petang raining, so we stood there waiting for the rain to stop. den proceed to a carpark, kecoh la i see dorg.

till police car came, complain i guess. all run like hell, den proceed to nex spot at multi story carpark. ard 9 plus me, munir n nizam wen off to eat. the rest of his frens stayed. so da eat wen to slack awhile, cukop time make way to int. nizam walk his way, me n munir wait for bus.

den now i jus reach home la. wnt b goin to sch i guess, too tired! to much fun! shd slack more often la munir k. well, i had fun action boy. i so wana get some sleep now, today will be miting my cousin to prac for dis sat peformance! whee hooo! ok im so so shagg.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

HAPI 18TH BUFDAE VIVIAN.

2009-05-21T10:18:00.007+08:00

19th may- aft sch slack wif bella, kcik, aisha, yas n raihan at titanic. kecoh la ok, was a blast! jus cant describe it, well didnt relli take ani pics. buzy kecohing, den my cousin call me saying. dis sat, 23th, we hav a performance! so on fridae be miting my cousin.

20th may- aft sch slack wif zee, fili, vivian, wan n haiqal all ard pasir ris. yes all ard the estate, almost. haha, wen to the beach took photos n stuff. slack under voideck, soon vivian n wan left. so the rest plan to go slack at haiqal hs. so we did, we jam at his hs. Super fun!

den goin to 10pm we proceed hm. nti lamat nah sampai uma, pasir ris to wlds man. haha, well zee n fili wen hm ah. den i oso, haiqal send me to wlds. we talk alot la n so yea. den decided to slack at my RC. ard 12pm his dad came to fetch him up, i ran up my hs jap n kasi nasi lemak.

my mum bought tat, i give to thk him for being a gd fren n well teman me la. ntg much i can do, harap suke itu nasi lemak ye. well, at nite munir call. DA LAME ILANG! bt i understand, well we talk till early morning. sedih my hp batt low, end conversation gitu je. anw today miting him.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

back on track.

2009-05-18T23:37:00.016+08:00

17th may- wen out with my cousin, bt the jus got to noe band fren cldnt make it. so onli the both of us, wen to esplanade nye merlion sane nye ujong to slack. drink starbucks, den sit ard n made a song! 1 song completed n another song half way done. was a loud funny slack.

there's some, i mean all! of his pcture i took. part taking my pic, he is SO RAJIN. ntg was taken. bt at nite meet up my bro's girlfren there. wen to eat at marina bay, den wen photo taking at cthall. hell yea we camwhored! again been along time tk gini. more pic taken actualli.

today- wen to sch with the single status. was diff, was scared i'd bump into him. bt i didnt n hell i had so much fun today! aft sch slacked with zee, haiqal, vivian, wan n fili at marina barage den marina sq. total madness! terlalu byk lameness jokes n talks n action came out.

ps; i upload all of the videos n pics taken here soon.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

im loving it.

2009-05-17T00:16:00.008+08:00

i mention my bro n cousin need a guitarist to perform yst.

IT WAS AWSOME! a very good start aft tings happen last two days. we played acoustic blablabla, wen we ended. i felt good! the orgerniser even wants us to try out performing in one of this bar. if the owner of someting tat one, likes us. they'll take us as their live band!

i hope we can make it. if we dont, its ok wat. haha, ok so ard june 09 there is a gig. the organiser wants to try me n my cousin out to be the host! i cant believe how life is treating me back. aft i hav to go tru the pain for a year plus n now wen it ends with the painest pain.

tings turn pretty the next day, i didnt cry. i cldnt cry animore, y shd i. i was dumb before. bt not animore, ive make the right choice. did a wrong choice to stay before. bt now again im glad we're over. i hav great life ahead of me, i hav yet to study n full fill my career n passion.

today- meeting my cousin, be slackin with him n ppl frm a band tat we jus got to noe. we're planing on doin some featuring n stuff. i'll update more, new pictures ahead. omg hw long hav i not camwhore ah? tmr camwhore gile ah, whee huu! well, i need to sleep nw.

ps; the bands name is THE CATS PYJAMAS.

till den; RAISAHEARTS

new chapter in life.

2009-05-16T11:04:00.003+08:00

i was dumb to stay on, i shd hav gone earlyer aft he did tat. i couldnt tink for myself of wat to do. i havent got a fren, he didnt give me a chance to. i hav to tink for myself, without aniones opinion n help. i was weak n forgiving. i didnt noe wat to do, so i stayed on.

till 15 may 09, i made the decision to leave. it was sad, so sad for me. bt it was easy, so easy for him. with the gdbye, with the take care n all. i cry n cry n cry, den i stoped. i said to myself, y am i so dumb. y did i ever tink he would change. y do i still wana go tru all the pain.

y do i still wana love. so i planned my future alone tat nite. i will leave him with no concern like he did. i'll study hard/smart for my future. i'll make my parents proud/happy. i'll do wat i use to love doin last time. not get stuck in a cage waiting to be eaten, im still young.

begin- 14feb08 / ended- 15may09.

it was a hell ride i hav ever been too. u wdlnt wana noe wat, u might say im dumb too. too dumb to go on, bt now we're strangers. im glad tings in my head is goin off slowly. ive got my family to support me, i miss my frens i once enjoy being with. now i hav to start a new.

start frm skrecht, im afraid if my frens cant accept me back. i dont want them to feel like, if ive lost one ting. nw im coming back cos im left nothing. i missed yall in anw. im glad my parents are ever so supportive. now a days, they are here for me. ive got back to my hs in sg.

guess wat, today is my day. a great day to start a new aft yst. my cousin n brother need a guitarist to perform at belzone, t'pagar, there. ive agreed cos tat is wat ive always enjoy doin. nothing is now stopping in my way of not doin aniting i love. im moving on and so tats all.

till den; RAISAHEARTS