frm inside

15th jul- stayed hm n rot.

16th jul- stayed hm n rot.

today- stayed hm n not gona rot! im goin out, i cant take it. all of dis is due to me bein sick, till i cant attend sch. ive got to stay hm all day long, rot till i die? i didnt go doc tho, wen it comes to im relli sick. i scared ah wana go doc, wen im not sick. jus for the sake of MC, i dare.

haha, soon i be goin starbucks. chill wif fadli, its a coincidence. we both craving for starbucks, anw. i hav to fight dis sickness, cannot be weak. ive eaten my daily medicine, ever since im sick. been so weak for 4days, lying on my bed tros. today i wana step out, i wana open my gate!

unlock the PAGA, press my lift button, sit at bustop, hear bus ezlink sound, ride escalator at int, buy hacks for myself, spend my money, walk to civic n taste starbucks there(: oh hell yea, haha!

bt its weird tat, there is one ting. i cnt deny or fight the weakness, not even now or wen im out later. ntg like my sickness, more to within me i feel. feel like i need it everitime/everiwer wif me, so incomplete n plain. love? im deeply missing someone, in my heart everi second of my life.

ps; do you? oh well, oni god noes its true.

till den; RAISAHearts